~SoMe RaMbLiNgs~

Personally, I am perpetually perplexed by few people who love to assume things without even bother to find out the truth themselves. It wont bug me much if they choose to keep their assumptions just for themselves but it is really annoying when those people start to talk to others about it and later whoa...the whole world knows about it. It's all begin with a plain assumption that so and so do this and that *sigh*

"Buatlah sesuka hati, tapi ingat, kamu akan MATI"

No offense ya but to all haters out there...GET A LIFE!

Pen-off.

~waTcha ThiNkIng..a sELf RefLecTiON~

One of my rommies asked me to change my ringtone today. At the present, my ringtone is the Andra and The Backbone's hittest "Sempurna". She could barely stand the song anymore as she 'kept humming the lagu bodoh tu' (as quoted directly from her). Well, for those who have no idea what the song is all about, lets have a peek on the lyrics:

Sempurna (Andra and The Backbone)

Kau begitu sempurna
Dimataku kau begitu indah
kau membuat diriku akan slalu memujamu

Disetiap langkahku
Kukan slalu memikirkan dirimu
Tak bisa kubayangkan hidupku tanpa cintamu

Janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku
Takkan mampu menghadapi semua
Hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa

Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidupku
Lengkapi diriku
Oh sayangku, kau begitu
Sempurna.. Sempurna..

Kau genggam tanganku
Saat diriku lemah dan terjatuh
Kau bisikkan kata dan hapus semua sesalku

Amacam best tak lirik ni? Well, hold your opinion first and try to take a closer look at the lyrics again.

Sempurna (The edited version)

KAU begitu sempurna
Dimataku KAU begitu indah
KAU membuat diriku akan slalu memuja-Mu

Disetiap langkahku
Kukan slalu memikirkan diri-Mu
Tak bisa kubayangkan hidupku tanpa cinta-Mu

Janganlah KAU tinggalkan diriku
Takkan mampu menghadapi semua
Hanya bersama-Mu ku akan bisa

KAU adalah darahku
KAU adalah jantungku
KAU adalah hidupku
Lengkapi diriku
Oh sayangku, KAU begitu
Sempurna.. Sempurna..

KAU genggam tanganku
Saat diriku lemah dan terjatuh
KAU bisikkan kata dan hapus semua sesalku

So, what do you think?Nampak bodoh lagi tak lagu tu or have you readers changed your mind? Lagu tu yang bodoh or are we the one yang sometimes agak jahil dan being too biased?Pernah dengar tak lagu Sandaran Hati by Letto? That song is actually a 'nasyid' (seriously!) but see how people manipulate it to their life accordingly? It's a wonder to see how our minds process the SAME information from the SAME source DIFFERENTly. When I first heard the song (Sempurna), I immediately like it, not because it reminds me of someone (oh how bodoh does it sound?) but more likely, it reminds me of my KHALIQ. Salah ke if I love the song? Okay la, maybe i'm not an ustazah or a mufti to draw a clear cut line of what is right and what is not, but whatever reminds me of my KHALIQ, I would definitely love it...er...even when others choose to think differently. Tapi I wont lie, it hurts when people choose to labeled what we love as 'stupid' or yang sewaktu dengannya. Uiks sensitif plak hari ni.Hahahaha. So readers, what do you think? Before I end this entry I love to share a saying that I heard before (Sorry, I cant remember the source). But it goes something like this:

Tugas seorang Daie ialah mengajak manusia ke jalan ALLAH , bukan untuk menghukum.

Think about it peeps. Pen-off.

~aLHaMduLiLLaH...TerIMa KaSiH~

(saya pun tak tahu kenapa saya memilih untuk menulis entry ini, dan sebagai seorang yang sentiasa blur, saya pun masih tercari-cari sebab mengapa pada kali ini saya memilih untuk menulis dalam bahasa Melayu. Takpe la kan, ni kan blog saya, jadi, secara logiknya saya tak perlu menjelaskan pape kepada korang kan?..heheheh)

Pada entry ini saya ingin berkongsi satu cerita yang agak menarik bagi saya. (Ok, saya terpaksa menggunakan perkataan entry sebab saya tak pasti perkataan yang sesuai untuk menggantikan entry dalam bahasa Melayu...alamak cam poyo plak cakap camni). Anyway, berbalik kepada cerita tadi. Cerita ini tentang diri saya dan satu cabaran. Satu cabaran yang merubah hidup saya. Satu cabaran yang menjadikan saya lebih teruja untuk bertemu dengan kekasih saya. Satu cabaran yang mengajar saya tentang erti sebuah cinta. Satu cabaran yang mendamaikan dan menenangkan hati saya yang selama ini memang selalu tak tenang. Satu cabaran yang korang pun boleh guna untuk mencabar kawan, adik, kakak, abang, suami, isteri, mak mentua, pak mentua...pendek kata sape-sape la yang korang terasa nak cabar. Yang best tentang cabaran ni, bukan jek inshallah korang akan menang, orang yang korang cabar tu pun akan menang jugak. It's a win-win situation. Dan saya cam boley jamin jugak (inshallah) orang yang korang nak cabar tu takkan pelekung, or kenekan korang balik (inshallah jgk). So, inilah masanya korang nak mengenakan sesape yang korang dh lama nak kenakan...ye tak? Confused eh? heheheh. So, korang yang ader semangat inkuiri yang tinggi mesti cam teruja kan nak tahu ape la agaknya cabaran yang cmbest sgt tu? cabarannya ialah... Jeng..jeng..jeng..ala, takkan la nak cakap kat sini terus kan, so korang kne read further kalo nak tau pasal cabaran tu. Ok, pada korang yang rasa bende ni cam mengarut dan buang masa, xpe la, tak yah bace pun takpe, tak rugi ape2 pun. Korang boleh skip entry ni.

So kisah dier camni, ada seseorang yang telah meminta saya untuk menghafal surah Al-Baqarah sebagai syarat untuk sesuatu. Yer, surah Al-Baqarah yang 286 ayat tu yang merangkap surah terpanjang dalam Quran. Walaupun secara awalnya dia bukan mencabar saya untuk menghfal, tapi mungkin sebab permintaannya yang agak unik tu membuatkan saya rasa agak tercabar (read: postively tercabar ok). Nak dijadikan cerita pulak, anak dara ketiga En. Aziz ni memang la agak pantang dicabar, so, dengan sepenuh jiwa dan raga dan lagak confidentya saya menyahut cabaran tersebut. Pada waktu tu, entah kenapa saya dengan mudahnya menerima 'cabaran' tersebut. Langsung tak terfikir yang surah tu sangat panjang (berpeluh) dan setiap ayat dalam surah tu pun boleh tahan jugak panjangnya (berpeluh lagi banyak...huhuhu).

Pada hari yang sama, right after solat maghrib, saya terus capai Quran dan baca surah al-Baqarah. Yang first 6 ayat tu inshallah, rasa-rasanya ramai yang x ade masalah kn nk baca. Ramai jugak kan antara korang yang siap hafal makna-makna ayat tersebut. Masuk jek muka surat yang kedua dan ketiga...fuh..tu dia..baru la terhentak ke realiti jugak. Panjang woo ayat-ayat dia..So saya pun try la hafal jugak (sebab dh macam tercabar kan). Hafal jek, tak tengok makna pun. So bila dah dua hari, saya rasa susah hati pulak. Tak banyak yang saya dapat hafal. Dah la tu, makna nya pun saya tak faham sangat. Fikir punya fikir, saya ambil keputusan nak tukar cara hafalan saya. Kali ni saya pastikan setiap ayat yang saya hafal tu, saya tahu maknanya sekali. Memang susah memula tu. Hampir jugak give up. Banyak hari dah berlalu tapi sikit jek yang saya dapat hafal. Tapi saya kuatkan jugak semangat. Saya sedar something was wrong somewhere. Bila check balik diri, baru sedar niat saya untuk menghafal ni. Saya hafal sebab syarat untuk mendapatkan sesuatu. Masa tu, saya rasa malu sangat pada ALLAH, pada diri saya, pada semua makhluk yang ada kat dunia ni. Orang lain berusaha hafal Quran sebab nak dapatkan keredhaan ALLAH..tapi saya....hm..entahlah. Sepanjang malam saya tak boleh tidur. Menangis jek.

So, sebab dah tak boleh tidur, saya terus bangun, dirikan solat Taubat..betul-betul doa mintak ampun kat ALLAH. Then saya rasa tenang sangat. Saya capai Quran, tengok balik surah tu. Saya start baca perlahan-lahan. Saya check makna nya sekali. Saya bertekad untuk tetap teruskan jugak 'cabaran' tersebut. Tapi kali ni, bukan sebab inginkan sesuatu, tetapi cukup untuk mencabar diri saya sendiri dan mengharap semoga amalan yang kecil ini ALLAH terima. Saya harap Rasulullah tak akan malu untuk mengaku saya sebagai umatnya. Jadi setiap kali ada masa yang terluang, saya akan cuba untuk hafal dan fahami makna setiap ayat tersebut. Makin lama makin seronok pulak. Makin baca makin banyak benda yang saya belajar dan discover. Selama lebih kurang nak 20tahun jugak baca Quran, saya tak pernah terfikir pun sebelum ni kenapa ALLAH bilangan surah untuk setiap golongan yang ALLAH ceritakan pada permulaan surah tu berbeza-beza. Pastu, banyak lagi ayat-ayat yang menarik hati saya dan membuatkan saya lebih berfikir tentang beberapa perkara. Oh..sungguh ayat-ayat cinta! Pernah tak korang alami benda-benda camni?hm~bunyi cam hape plak..muahahaha.

Anyway, kejadian ni sedikit sebanyak mengubah cara hidup saya. Pertama, cam yang saya dah cakap tadi, saya belajar untuk bermuhasabah dan berfikir dengan lebih baik (not that I didnt think or reflect before, but rather, more deeply than before). Kedua, saya lebih berhati-hati dengan tindak tanduk saya sebagai seorang muslimah. Permakanan, aktiviti, cara saya mengurus masa..semuanya saya try untuk jaga elok-elok. Teringat saya satu kata-kata yang lebey kurang camni la maksudnya (maaf, saya x ingat hadis ke, kata-kata ke..sapa2 yang tahu tlg bgtau ek) 'ilmu itu nur, dan nur hanya dapat menerangi hati orang yang tidak melakukan maksiat'.So, saya tak nak la kalo saya mensia-siakan hafalan saya ni. Jadual harian pun dah tukar jugak. Saya cuba pastikan setiap kali lepas waktu solat, saya akan try hafal dan tadabbur balik ayat-ayat yang saya dah hafal. Bermula dengan satu cabaran, saya mendapat satu ketenangan. Sekarang ni saya dah tak kisah sangat kalo saya dapat atau tidak apa yang saya hajatkan tu sebab saya dah terjumpa sesuatu yang lebih berharga dari itu. Inshallah. Saya tak pasti kenapa orang tu letakkan syarat surah Al-Baqarah pada permulaannya. Mungkin dia hanya nak uji saya, mungkin jugak dia nak saya menjadi insan yang lebih baik..wallahu'alam. Tapi walau apa pun alasan dia, saya sangat bersyukur kepada ALLAH kerana insan tersebut telah menjadi asbab kepada saya untuk melangkah setapak mebaiki kelemahan diri. Terima kasih ya ALLAH kerana menggerakkan hatinya meletakkan syarat begitu dan membuat ku berubah. Dan kepada dia, saya juga tidak tahu bagaimana mahu memanjangkan ucapan terima kasih saya kepada dia. Semoga ada orang yang dapat menyampaikan kepadanya atau perhaps, dia terbaca juga tulisan saya ini. Takpe la. Tak kisahlah. So readers, korang pun nak tak mencabar orang cmni jgk? Mungkin cabaran korang tu dapat membantu orang lain untuk discover sth good jgk....or mungkin korang sendiri yang nak mencabar diri korang sendiri? Nak try? Pen-off.

~Yes..I'm WeaRiNg HiJab..so?~

Why do people tend to think that if you are wearing hijab, you cant speak English well or you dont have enough money to buy something? Hello? Sadly, some of the muslim also have that silly mindset. Rather than supporting women who are trying to uphold the Islamic teachings, some people attune to discriminate those who wear hijab as the former. Those women are condemned, labelled and being denied to even have a chance to prove themselves to the public. Today, I have a full blast of this prejudice. I walked into a shop with the intention of purchasing a present for my elder sister. Being hip and funky as she is, I decided to buy something that would suit her character, a ******* handbag (i really can't write what the brand is, or else you might know which shop i went to). I scouted around to the shop and finally spot a very trendy, funky handbag that I bet my sister would love it. However, as I were about to call the sale assistant there, I accidentally heard them 'gossiping' about me in English (as if i cant understand them la kan). Among other things that they said are I just walk around and wont buy anything cause I dont have money and 'nevermind, she cant understand us cause she's wearing tudung' (really? then, should I write this entry in Arabic instead?) . They were even show their prowess in English by using word as 'purchase' instead of 'buy' when gossiping about me. *smirking*. I was in rage at first and almost walked out from the shop when suddenly I a nasty and an obviously- not-so - good idea crept in. If I were to walk out from the shop just like that, I might be a fitnah for my religion. I had such I cant just let them confirm that their theory that 'hijab women are penniless and cant speak English well' is correct. Period! So, I looked at them and said 'you girls sure have fun mocking me around, hey, why dont one of you attend that lady (pointed to a lady) I bet, she loves it'. I took a few steps and turned back 'By the way, such attitude of yours is very imprudent. I'll make sure that your manager learns about it by tomorrow!' I gave them my sweetest smile and walked out from the shop. There, if you could see the girls, I'm sure you'll be laughing to see her gawking face. Ok, i know, tak baik ketawakan orang.

Looking back at the incidents, I couldnt help but to highlight some essential points (DO correct me if I were wrong). First and foremost, we, muslim women should not be ashamed and scared to wear hijab or to cover our 'aurat' properly. Be proud of yourselves! We have a bigger responsibility to perform our best as to shrug off all the negative connotations that are usually associated with the hijab women. What I dont appreciate though is how differently others treat you once you are in hijab. Many assume I dont speak English. Some shops hardly see me as a customer. Many workforce assumed that women in hijab is not credible for certain posts especially that largely concern with public relationship matters. *sigh* Since when does one's decision to wear hijab is a benchmark of her performance? Yes, we choose to wear hijab. We know that we are uniquely different, but not weirdly different for sure. So to all the muslimah out there, do not succumb to the pressure of others for HIS rewards is already there for us, inshallah.

Next, as much as we dont want others to discriminate us for wearing hijab, we ourselves should refrain any intention or action of doing the same to those who arent wearing hijab. I have few friends who arent wearing hijab. They often complaining that they receive the similar treatment ( i mean the discriminations) from others. They were perceived as care-free people who do not know how to perform their prayers, let alone reciting the Holy Quran. So I think it is a good time for us to stop and reflect over our actions and experience.

Before I stop, I love to make myself clear to some people who tend to have such discrimination over women in hijab. If you think that it is uncool to wear hijab, think again. It is way more uncool to being burn in the hell for not wearing hijab. Pen-off.

p/s: Farah if you are reading this (well I hope you are), please be informed that I didnt buy you the handbag. I'll try to get something else for you ya, inshallah. (ni alasan sbb tak beli hadiah ni..muahahaha)

~aNTaRa MiMpi DaN ReaLiTi~

jika kita takut untuk bermimpi
kita takkan tega melakar realiti
namun, mengapa memilih untuk lena
bila mimpi ada di depan mata?

~DuNia dh Nak KiaMaT...Iye Ke?~

Me and my tall, dark and handsome brother, Aizat went to Teluk Cempedak today (see Aizat, what a good sister I am to describe you in such manner!). Aizat gian nak berenang and as for me, I love to wander aimlessly along the beach. There were sea of faces on the beach so we had to find a remote area as I do not fancy the attitudes of some couples that I think are very much collided with our eastern culture, let alone the Islamic teachings. So, after jogging and walking for quite a some time, I decided to sit onto a large rock and waited for Aizat. There were still few couples at the areas. They were holding hands, sat so close to one another, main dukung2 and kejar2 (God, i really hope that these people are married!). There were no sign that Aizat wanted to go back that early. Mind you, this brother of mine needs at least 30 minutes whenever he is in the water. So, there I was, waiting for him and watching him as if I were his nanny. While waiting, my mind wandered to the Tsunami tragedy that happens few years ago. Macam mana kalau tiba-tiba Tsunami tu datang melanda while me and Aizat were here? Dah bersedia ke aku nak bertemu dengan- Nya? Dah cukup ke aku berbakti pada mak ayah? Dah mintak maaf dengan semua orang? Such thought filled me with shiver. I quickly istighfar and recited some verse from Surah Al-Baqarah. Suddenly, there was a dead silence. My ears could only process the sound of the wave and the chirping birds. Alamak, ade Tsunami ke? Panic! I quickly looked up to see what happened. All the eyes were fixed on me. The nearest couple that few minutes ago sat quite close to me stood up and walked away. Then the guy said "Yang, dunia dah nak kiamat la...ader orang pergi pantai baca Quran". The girl giggled non-stop and laughed out loud. 'La, pelik ke tengok orang mengaji dekat pantai?' Terdetik hatiku. Then there was another girl who said to her guy (dont ask me whether they are married or not cause I really don't know) "honey, you tengok, ni la calon orang yang nak kawen dengan ustaz". The guy replied "kawen dengan ustaz xpe, kalo dier pergi bom pantai ni macam kat Bali, lagi la..haru kite" Tuhan, hatiku benar-benar tersentuh. Kenapa orang Islam sendiri felt weird when they see other muslims reciting the Quran? Is it because I recite the Holy verse at the beach? Da~ Tolong la. Takkan la kene baca Quran dekat masjid je kot? Pelik jugak. Ada mazhab yang menggariskan peraturan camtu ke? Macam tak kena jek. *scratching my head* Hm..dunia nak kiamat bila ada orang baca Quran dekat pantai? Hehehehe..sengih je la. So readers, pasni cuba try baca Quran kat pantai. You might encounter some interesting experience too..who knows? Try it today and dont forget to pen down the experience ya! *smirking* Pen-off.

~aNTaRa AgaMa DaN NeGaRa~

Ok, lets face it for real. Blogging is bloody addictive and self indulgent. I just posted a new entry less than four hours ago, yet, here I am, typing for a new one. Whatever happens to my self proclaimed that I am not an avid blogger? *sigh* Nah, lets shrug it off for a while. As I've promised you reader in the last entry, I would write something about my BTN. To those who had hoped for my crazy experience of BTN (not to mention embaressing as usual), I'm so sorry for I have to crush it now. And to those who wished for a pleasure reading, you may want to skip this entry for what I am going to write next is a serious matter. Nevertheless, I DO hope, you might read this entry somehow.

Ok, tengok tajuk pun dah bunyi macam serius kan? Antara agama dan negara. Well, all my siblings including my sister in laws had warned me prerequisite the BTN that I should do less talking and of course, put down my debating skills for a while. They meant well actually. You see, I am kind of person who loves to talk and at times, debating with others especially when the topics concern my principles and beliefs. Such attitudes, they afraid, might put me in 'danger' as I could be very into the 'discussion' and as usual, it might turn out to be the heated ones! So, being an obedient sister, I had tried my best to remain silent (read: silent here means not to talk more than 5 minutes per speech) and listen more. Well, who knows that less talking would put me in a GREAT DANGER as well!!!! Sob..Sob..Sob..To illustrate the event, here is an excerpt of what had happened. Isunya? 'Antara agama dan negara, mana yang lebih penting?'

N= My facilitator
A= Me

N: Ok, saya setuju dengan pandangan kamu semua ya. Tapi saya ingin mendengar pandangan aziati pulak. Aziati ni pendiam pulak dia yer. (When he said this, I swear I could see all my group members were trying their best to contain themselves. Knowing me, they know the last description that people would label me is 'pendiam') So apa pandangan aziati? Mana yang lebih penting?

A: (Chuckle bits..alamak soalan maut plak dier kasi kt aku) Erm, antara agama dan negara, bagi saya yang lebih penting ialah agama. Agama merupakan satu pegangan yang dapat membentuk pemikiran dan peribadi. Secara ringkasnya, agama saya, Islam, mengajar saya untuk mencintai negara. Ada hadis yang menyatakan 'hubbul watani minal iman' yang bermaksud 'mencintai negara itu sebahagian daripada iman' . Jadi, kerana saya yakin dengan ajaran Islam, saya secara tidak langsung, turut mencintai negara saya. (ok, i knew it was more than 5 mins already)

N: Maksud aziati, kalo kena memilih, aziati akan pilih agama dahulu,bukan negara?

A: yer..cmtu la

N: Ok, cuba aziati fikir, tanpa sebuah negara, dapat tak aziati amalkan ajaran Islam? Dapat tak Islam itu berkembang?

A: Kenapa tidak?

N: Cuba aziati lihat banyak je negara- negara yang ditindas tidak dapat mengamalkan ajaran Islam. Kosovo, Bosnia dan Iraq.Islam kat situ pun tak berkembang langsung. Orang sibuk perang, bunuh umat Islam. Sedangkan Rasulullah S.A.W pun perlu berhijarah ke Madinah untuk mengembangkan Islam. Nampak tak negara yang lebih penting? So, setuju atau tidak jika saya katakan negara lebih penting daripada agama...walaupun kedua-duanya penting.

diam...pada waktu ni all eyes were fixed at me. Deep down inside, I knew some of us disagree, but they remained silence. Even the two people whom I really hoped to help me wont say anything. They were muted. Speechless? I dont know. Afraid that whatever they said might fail them for the BTN? Perhaps so.

A: Maaf tuan, saya kurang bersetuju. Saya tetap rasa agama lebih penting. Jika kita lihat kembali sejarah Islam, ketika Rasulullah berdakwah secara sembunyi di Mekah, umat Islam masih boleh mengamalkan ajaran Islam, walau tidak sepenuhnya dan kesannya, kita dapat lihat bagaimana ajaran Islam itu berkembang sehingga ke Madinah. Perkembangan inilah yang merintis jalan kepada penubuhan negara Islam yang pertama iaitu Madinah. Kerana akidah yang kuat, umat Islam dapat membentuk sebuah negara dan seterusnya mempertahankan dan memakmurkan negara tersebut daripada pelbagai ancaman. Jadi di sini, walaupun tanpa sebuah negara, umat Islam masih dapat mengamalkan ajaran Islam dan Islam terus berkembang walaupun tidak sepesat jika kita memiliki sebuah negara yang aman. Bagi saya, memiliki sebuah negara yang merdeka merupakan satu bonus. Memang benar, di beberapa buah negara yang dilanda peperangan, umat Islam tidak bebas dan ditindas, tapi adakah mereka tidak dapat langsung mengamalkan Islam? Saya rasa tidak. Islam merangkumi semua tatacara hidup. Jadi saya tetap merasakan agama lebih penting dari negara. (of course, i exceeded 5 mins again!)

There I have said it. Loud and clear. I could see that my facilitator was not happy at all with my answers. He even gave me 5 mins to rethink about my decision and yet, I chose to stay with my beliefs. Others might not want to express their disagreement but I thought (and still think) that I have to reveal the truth. Especially, when there were non Muslim amongst the audience. Up to this point, I still uncertain whether my action to speak up my mind is right or not. I remembered one of the Imam Hassan Al-Bana's advices that we muslim should not dispute about our religion and it is wiser to avoid any debate regarding 'furuk (remeh temeh) matters. I know I might fail my BTN and of course, it would be difficult for me to get 'pengesahan jawatan' soon but do I regret it? No, not at all. How about you readers? Would you choose to speak up if u were me? Would you jump at the second chance that he gave you and change your mind about what you said? Something that you want to ponder about. Pen-off.

~aFTer a WhILe..~

I really miss my blog!

So much things are happening and unfortunately, I had no chance to pour them on my blog. Had to attend the pesta pantun and few other courses including the scary, notorious BTN ( i might have to repeat my BTN though!). well, as the saying goes 'Berkhidmat untuk negara'. hehehe. So, for this entry i love to share some snapshots of what had happened to me in two significant events, namely the pesta pantun and the BTN. Snapshots would do la ek...coz byk sgt plak nnt..sume pn akan jd bosan.

Pesta Pantun.
1. I had gone a lot of difficulties revealing my real age. Most of the contestants and even the lecturers wont believe me when I said I am 23 years old, not 19 as most of them thought so.
2. Most of them wont believe me when I said that that was the first time I ever berpantun again after my form five. Cause I can use the words 'marhain' 'adiwangsa' 'kirana' and so on..which sadly to say, most of the people do not know its meaning. Come on, Malays..learn your language!!
3. Since i kept using the archive language, some of the judges, sadly from IBMM thought i made up those words..tsk tsk tsk. Ade ke patut?
4. Had to face the harsh of the competition whereby people sabotage you for the sake of winning. Better not to write it here. It was so unethical,horrible, immature and unprofessional. I was so sad to witness and experience them myself...and they still claimed themselves as lecturers and future teachers? Ha, dont make me laugh people!!
5. Some of the judges didnt even know that all the pemantun are allowed to walk while delivering their pantun. The chief judge even said it is 'gaya yang keterlaluan' Da~ reti ke tidak peraturan?

Encounter 1
A : Eh awk ni pemantun kisas kan? Yang dulu wakil RTM dengan RTB? Saya tengok awk berpantun tu pun saya dah perasan.
B: (terkejut) Er..yup. Macam mana encik tahu?
A: Ala, saya ingat la awak. Suara awak tu pun saya boleh cam. Lagipun bukan selalu tengok peserta terjatuh atas pentas. *Smirking*
B: (Ches!!!bengong!!) Hehehe..betul2. Jadi, menjadi jugak la yer gimik saya dulu. Sampai sekarang orang igt.*Blushing*

Encounter 2
Aziati : Eh laily, cube ko tgk abg yg kt bwh tu..aku rasa cm pernah tengok jek dier..tapi tak igt la.
Sape ek? Abg KPLI ke? Ke senior kite?
Laily : Wei Aziati, ko buat lawak ke hape ni? Tu Elly Iskandar la.
Aziati : Padan la cm pernah tengok!!
I bet Elly Iskandar heard us cause he was trying hard not to laugh out loud and cynically said
"Kat rumah xde tv ke dik?" Uiks, pedas tuh!

Alamak, cam malas pulak nak pen down what had happened in the BTN, tapi x pe la, i write them in the next entry. Inshallah. So peeps, have a nice day. Be good!!

~JusT for You.. Mum~

I know she was scared. She clasped her hands tightly and her legs were shaking non-stopped. I wished I could say something, anything to soothe her and made her felt better. At this point of time, the only thing that I could do was to hug her. Her body was shaking lightly. "Sejuk" she said. An excuse that we both knew to cover the truth. She was scared, so was I. She had always trying her best to avoid coming to the doctor, but today, she was left with no other choices for she had an appointment. I glanced at her again, tried to envision my life without her. No, I couldn't. She means the world to me. I couldn't imagine my life without her. I shooed away all the negative thoughts and sighed. She, perhaps mistook my sighed as bored and suggested me to go to a cafe downstairs. I said nothing and smiled to her.
"I'm glad that you came here with me today" She whispered and broke the silence.
"I'm glad that you're my mother". I replied.
"Thank you"
I was startled. How could she thank me when she is my mother? God.
"Mane ade mak cakap terima kasih kat anak. Anak yang selalu kene cakap terima kasih kat mak. Mak ni..nk buat drama swasta plak" I joked.
She looked at me and smiled. God, it took every ounce of my courage to hold back my tears. Who would imagine that one day I received a call and being informed that my mum was warded. She had never been hospitalized before (apart from giving birth to all her six children of course!). I rushed back home as soon as I could, just to make sure that I was there by her side, and there I was for the past few days. God, please let her to be all right. I love her and will always love her. She is the most special lady in my life. Life without her, is just like a rainbow without its colours. I missed her already. I wished I am still in Kuantan. Pen-off.